Reasons to Write
I’ve spent a lot of time lately trying to work up the energy to write.
I know… writing is something that should just come to me… that’s what they say anyhow… if you’re a writer, you will have a “need” to write. Nothing will stop you…
Except, that is, yourself.
I have been writer my entire life.
When I was a kid, I would write movies and plays that I would imagine my friends and I someday producing.
As I grew older, I wanted to write novels. I wanted to write screenplays.
I just wanted to write.
As to why I didn’t make it a career from the get go, I will leave that to another post…
And now… here I am…
Sixty-four and retired.
No time like the present….
So what the heck is stopping me?
Me… that’s what…
I realize that I am trying to find my reason to write.
A lot of writers do so out of ego. But I suppose that most things we all do are out of ego.
I do not want that to be my driving force.
I used to think I could write something that would miraculously change the world. People would see my words and realize “Ahhh… now I see it… thank you wise one…”
See… ego…
But, the truth is, I don’t have anyone else’s answers, only my own.
I have come to realize, I cannot save the world.
Hell… I can’t even save one person…. except….
Me.
I think that is pretty much what the number one job for all of us is… to save ourselves… from ourselves.
Not in a “drag the old lady out of the Titanic lifeboat and let me aboard!!!” kind of selfishness.
I’m referring to the kind of self help that can make us better people.
I don’t want to add to all of the anxiety that is out there right now. That helps no one.
I want to be kind.
I want to be understanding.
And to do this, I have to fully embrace the concept that God and the Universe have a unique plan for each and every one of us.
I have to stop questioning that. And just trust the plan.
Each and every one of them.
Instead of thinking I can somehow impact the billions of paths being taken by everyone on this planet… I need to just focus on my own.
And realize, that this is my contribution to the crazy thing we call life.
So.. after all this blathering, what are my reasons to write?
First, to keep myself sane. To sort out my thoughts via the keyboard, and try to remain calm and kind, and always moving forward in my personal growth.
And second, maybe something I write will create an “ah-ha” moment for someone. Maybe not today, but when the moment is right during their journey.
Safe travels everyone.
